I’ve almost always hated my birthday. Mostly the attention. But also I have this weird thing about how I really suck with dates and if I can’t remember other people’s birthdays, I feel bad when they remember mine. I know, weird, but basically don’t say happy birthday or sing to me I’m begging you.
Of course when a new year rolls around, everyone gives some thought on where they have been, where they are, and where they are going. Maybe (if I’m lucky), this is my “quarter-life” reflection. Under almost every circumstance, I can say that I am pretty much exactly where I thought I would be after college graduation. I have a graduate degree, though I don’t think at the time I was expecting to be working on a second, and I have a coaching job. I like to think that I make a difference in girls’ lives like my previous coaches did for me and I thoroughly enjoy what I get to do. So what happens tomorrow?
We are all different people all through our lives and that’s okay. That’s good. You’ve got to keep moving so long as you remember all the people that you used to be.
-Matt Smith (Doctor Who)
I absolutely loved Matt Smith as The Doctor (if you haven’t seen Doctor Who, you’re really missing out) and his last line on the show really resonated with me. These last four years have really changed me, in what I think is for the better. I think it has been a combination of my environment and my lessening fear of being original and owning it. I personally believe I’ve become my own person and grown quite tremendously in the direction I want to be going. Who I was yesterday was different than who I am today but I can’t deny that yesterday didn’t help me get here. That’s what I love so much about this quote… you are a culmination of your past but it doesn’t mean that’s all you are.
This minimalism challenge is a huge step for me on a personal level. I’ve had several ups and downs, just like everyone else, and in the process I gathered stuff both physically and mentally. Sure, some of them are reflections of my past but the idea of clearing a lot of it out and ridding myself of the clutter is an experience I am craving to help me move into year 26. So during the month of my birthday, I have been/will be eliminating 26 things from my tiny little room and continue my countdown to my total apartment purge in early May (don’t worry, I’m still trying to come up with something good to call that event).